Highs and Lows
It's like a swing set here.
" Ooo, the trees tops are beneath the view of my sneakers"
"aww, in the sand again."
I'm feeling better finally. I am still not THERE. I do think after 10 days of antibiotics I am finally back from the comatose world of severe sinus infection... stupid to think I need to recover energy. Part of me just wants to jump up off the chair and get everything done
..I said part of me. The other part is really really tired.
and hates doing dishes.
We applied for assistance.
We make below what we need to receive such assistance. ..but we were denied. They said we make too much???? AND they LOWERED the tiny bit of medically needy insurance (a back up thingy) we'd get,as if we make more than last time we applied,
when we very clearly make less the website states we need.
It doesn't make sense. Sometimes being responsible - married , homeowners, 2jobs,great credit- works against us, and is painstakingly annoying. RI is going to call them because there is no way it is right. He only works one day a week at cowboys!
RI got a call from the bank that our car loan is through... offering us to refinance our home loan through them(um. eek) and roll the car into it. We'd outright own the car and our interest would be lower on our home loan if we switched it to their bank. .. because they like our awesome credit . It would be cool. We'd be on a lower house payment , with NO car payment we'd be able to get place in St.auggy like we need to before Rory starts school....
Sometimes things ARE too good to be true. Before we even had time to mull it over they said they wouldn't be able to do it with the car.no thanks
That high- low was more like a slide than a swing.
Took Rory to the dentist for her filling the Thursday.
Poor thing, she was nervous and fussy and had hardly slept. We got some ridiculously early appt because we knew we'd have to go all the way out to Gainesville- may as well make a day of it, right?
I thought an early appt would mean less people there. Nope. It was pretty crowded in the waiting room. It wasn't long before we were out of there. Rory did a great job, she always does :) . She loves her dentist and that's why we keep going allll the way out there- to pay(a lot -cough ) out of pocket. We stopped by the 1st walmart and let her pick out a Little Pet. With no hesitation she got a cute bunny toy, which she hasn't put down since. Her dentist give her laughing gas- which I think makes her a bit weepy afterward.. I also think that and not sleeping enough is the reason she puked when she woke up from a nap this afternoon.
No sleep .no sleep. Rory lets me get NO SLEEP.
I want to yell. I want to scream. It's 4 am and she has slept maybe 10 hours in the last three days and she is whiny ,talky and she has giant red rings around her eyes
, and yet bouncing off the GD walls singing "Tomorrow"
, even with the lights off,
and with not being allowed, pretty much, anything for at least the last 4 hours. WHY?
... In fact, You know fuck it. I'm going all mean mommy in here. She is going in her bed to sing "Tomorrow" until I wake her up,
Because at this rate I just cannot deal with her fidgety talkyness and no sleep.
It is getting to where I don't care if she is asleep. With me having been soo out of it with that infection, I got to the point of napping while she played a lot more. I will no longer stay up with her when she isn't asleep. And I will no longer wake up with her when she wakes up.
Do you think that means she is sleeping more? No.
I am certain she has Delayed sleep-phase syndrome-every time I "fix" it (, and I have tried everything you can imagine and sometimes she goes a month or so fine before) - she falls back into it.Even if that means days of not sleeping, and fussiness to get the the point of a four am bedtime.I do not know how she will make it though school.. And I am sort of worried about it.
My child's sleep is broken
..and mine is severely cracked. ( Who am I kidding?)
While we were in Gainesville the other day we did ride around looking for WiiFit, since we didn't manage find one online.We went to every walmart and kmart in the big town,In the rain, and no one had it. It was to early for GameStop or any similar stores to be open- but just as we gave up and started to head home one popped open, and Ri ran in. He got something even better than a brand new overpriced fit with all the bells and whistles we already had..
Just the balance board- a return for just 60 bucks!! sweet!
We came home , and after I passed out cold for a bit- we played for awhile it is exhausting- but pretty cool. Now I just have to start beating all Ri's scores and such :) .
Harvey and Hether came over and played on it with us for a little bit. Miranda even took a break from playdoh and coloring with Rory to play.
The weather has been super rainy,but finally really warm. It came down pretty bad yesturday and Ri didn't have to work yesterday(Friday) . It was a pretty awesome day other than the whole Rory puking & overtired thing.
Ri finally got around to giving Noobs that MUCH needed bath
Rory spent the afternoon playing with Miranda .
Ri made the most awesome dinner -salad , lasagna , garlic bread and banana split for dessert.
He probably has to work today to make up for it though.
I didn't tell you- Our anniversary we dropped Rory off at Ri's mom's and went out to st.auggy to see Alice in Wonderland in 3d. Lissy and Bo went at the same time but we didn't meet up with them... we drove around for hours in a failed attempt to find a place to eat. It was freakishly packed in town, even for a Saturday... Ri wanted "a nice dinner" for our anniversary. He tried to say for ME, you know me gimmie a dr.pepper and some veg food from a drive thru and it sounds like a damn nice dinner... way nicer than waiting an hour to sit shoulder to shoulder with strangers for 20$ tofu platter.
-side note: St.Augustine needs a couple NICE ethnic restaurants. ..hell I'd settle for a hole in the wall indian or thai place- not big on fancy.. it was frustrating . Almost ruined our movie night.
Alice in wonderland lived up to the praise. what more can you say?? You already heard it was an awesome movie. yeah. so . what do you want??
Rory would love it. I sort of thought it would be more graphic and was afraid to bring her. We will have to get it on DVD for her.
She had an absolute blast at her Grammy's house tho. :)
The nice weather has been great.Rory and I even repotted the pretty plants Mommy got Ri&I for our anniversary, and took sometime to plant seeds. It was soo nice to finally feel like spring is coming . This winter has been brutal.
I still haven't been working on the things I have said I would get to. Like Photoshop projects - or organization projects and so on.
I am feeling very beat down by the whole recovering from exhastiuon thing. a few nights ago when Ri came home I just fell on his shoulder and weeped. I feel like a failure at this homemaker thing . I cannot keep up with the cleaning. I am NOT built for it. Dinner and cleaning and I am just beyond stressed I don't even know what to do.
I did take time the next day to clean Rory's room a little , but I just cannot keep up. Something has to be done in there. I think my nocturnachild is also a hoarder.Can we call that show just for the one room????
...and yeah. I DID find the mem card but I haven't taken any pictures.
(LOL. As if I would take pictures of this mess)
Turns out the battery charger was also lost.
I tore apart and reorginized almost the entire house.
A few hours ago,I found it in the glove box of the car Ri told me it shouldn't be in.
So no pics.
Very little cleverness and a lot of bitching.
Aren't you glad you read all that?
Well good morning!
I'm going to go to bed for maybe 5 hours before waking up the child and pretending I am normal .
I am starting to think the only highs in this post are caffeine highs
PEACE AND TOFU CHICKEN GREASE,